Off the top

I think.
But I digress

I try.
But I digress

My mind, body and soul are not in sync.

Each one is.
Independently.

My heart. I can't even find that station.
Can't distinguish Am-Fm

"Supposed to feel?????"
I don't know.

Pain?
That's one.

Sorrow?
A constant as the others

Happy?
Ha! You trippin.

Sad? Indifferent?
Anxious? Scared?
Too many to list.

All of the above. Except the one im supposed to be. Happy.
WTH is Happy?

Thoughts to scattered to supply my definition.
wait no... go to the last one.

An impossible possibility.

What were we talking about?
Oh yea. Mind, Body, Soul

Mind... craves the knowledge
Body... Sex and Affection
Soul.... Music and Any other art expression.

My mind and soul think.
And my body knows.

Funny how this is simply complicated.

My body needs.
And my mind and soul wants.

I think I want. I know I need.

Can my wants also supply my needs as the needs have?
Wow I'm weird... LOL


What a Leak..!

DDK

Why am I?

This grief causes me to be.
Constant let... Down


My subliminal goes further into your canal than anyone has traveled the abyss.
I love the wetness.

Noticing the deeper I go, The darker it gets. I pursue.
Knowledge is everything... right?

I know, possibly, too much.
Things I wish I didn't

Yet. I continue my endeavors.

I notice the repetition of "I"

Yet. I persistently progress.

Happy is a mythological dream only seen in the fantasies of my imagination.
Meaning- That shit ain't gonna happen.

I am the knight. The night. The darkness that pains me. Grief in the highest key.

That
makes
me.

Can I get a G flat?

Minor please. Nothing major about this.
Yes a chord. The harmony is me.
Put something before. Something after.
But keep playin that chord.
Play it over and over.
Different variations.
Revert to the same.
Just keep playin.

Child's play right.
Easy.

You keep hittin that chord.
Hit It!
Brake It!
And when it wont play.
Just go play another one.
Someone else will take the time to tune this just to play me.

Just waiting. I'm waiting patiently. One day.

Why am I me?
Cuz everyone wants to play me.

_DDK_

Gud Knight-

Gud Head-

Nothin

The is nothing melodic or profound about this.

I think she's cheating. For real.

I'm kicking myself in the ass everyday for mere thoughts and she is taking the liberty.

Should I be mad? hurt? what?
Am I allowed to be?

Shes only doing things that my mind has done a million times over.
I wanted stability.

What the fuck!!!!!

I'm tired. I know I need to take a brake. _but. I am in love with being in love.
Man nothing subliminal about this.

I'm hurt. I want to cry. _but. The only thing that comes out is laughter.
How could I be so stupid. To think sum1 could STAY down for me.

Ha Ha Ha Ha Ha Ha :( Down for me... (Yoda voice)- What a fool, am I.

For me love is a fuckin joke. Nothing but a short term joke.
Two months... I never waste my time.

No regrets... honestly... its not over.
I don't know what I'm gonna do.
Don't even know if its true.

Damn shame tho... "I'm going to sleep" she says
I say "ok"
Go to put some money on her phone and find out she has been on the phone for hours.
Wit sum1 from NY. Maybe I'm just jumping to conclusions. _but. Something dont feel right.